what to write about today .....
what to say that ...
when i smile doesnt mean im happy ...
when i laugh doesnt mean that stuff is funny ...
when i cry doesnt mean im sad...
but i can know that after a huge laugh ...
i will feel sad ...
and my tears falls...
it seem few times ago ...
and i try to stop it ...
friends in relation ...
and i always feel that im the one which is "dap pang"
maybe ...
i am...
laugh together ...
smile together ...
gossip together ...
but when the relation comes ...
it must will be a little change ...
always tell my own try to be alone ...
is ok ...
==
sometimes i wish someone will lend me a shoulder ...
to rest ...
but ...
there is always no ones...
there maybe just left shadow ...
im tough but doesnt mean i dont need a shoulder ...
i need a warm shoulder ...
have a rest ...
and let me to be some greedy and wet the shoulder ...
wht if i say im stress...
and i will always wht dad told me ..
no stress this kind of thing...
how many thing u did ...
how much u get ...
i try to maintain my happiness and not to polluted others mood ...
i can happy for a moment ...
but ...
what i need is not just for a moment...
i hate to grow up ...
when i get older ...
mind being more complicate ...
i wish to stay young ...
so that i can happy without any problem ...
i can choose not to face the problem ...
i hope to be in pass tense ...
but time never stop ...
my job is to keep on chasing on it ...
sometimes i feel that i wanted to be in relation ...
sometimes i feel to have a little caring ...
sometimes i feel there is always a ppl waiting for my msg ...
sometimes i feel there will a ppl listen mine nagging ...
sometimes i wish there is someone asking me to cook for him ...
sometimes i wish there is someone ask where i am ...
sometimes i wish there is someone asking not to go out at night ...
everything keeps in mind ...
just mind ...
but after whn i wake up ...
everything gone ...
i miss pass tense ...
every time i ask those couple to appreciate ...
because i missed a good guy ...
regret until now...
because im childish ...
and greedy ...
== ...
now what i get it is ...
sometimes i will admire on those couple ...
i ask myself not to look at them ...
ask my own to wake up ...
who really understood wht i need ?
Cynthia
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